April 26, 2012

Mallorie made a post of FB once about "seasons" of life.  How our newborns grow up and we'll miss them being newborns even though we don't get much sleep...essentially.

In all honesty, I do have the fleeting moment occasionally where I'll miss her being tiny and squishy but that moment quickly passes.  From the moment she was born (before she was born) I loved her but those first 6 weeks with Georgia were rough and I do not want to re live them.  Isn't that terrible?

I've LOVED each new stage in her life.  I thought I would hit each milestone with sadness but I haven't.  I love watching her grow and change and develop.  She is so incredible!  Sometimes I do want to pause, freeze frame her for a moment exactly the way she is.  Smiling real big, with her huge chick-let teeth, and her equally huge gap between the front two, laughing, and rolling around on the ground or carrying her "babies" through the house.

I do wish she liked to cuddle but she doesn't.  I get just a little cuddle time at night and naps when we rock her but she doesn't fall asleep until she is in bed by herself.  She never wanted to sleep in our bed...she just couldn't get comfortable.  She would never nurse in bed laying down...she hated that.  She's always been a touch independent.  (I have no idea where she gets that, do you mom?)

But anyways, as I think about my time with Georgia I just cannot fathom adding another child to our family any time soon.  I just adore it being the three of us.  I love our small family.  Yes, I do want other kids but I, in no way, can imagine dividing my time with her right now...I just don't want to.  Maybe when she's around 3 but I just want all the one on one time with her I can get.  I know once we have more I'll have enough love and time for all of them but right now I don't want to share my time.

Eventually, Jonathan and I see ourselves having 3 kids all about 3 years apart.  I like the idea of the first being in preschool when the other one comes so I can get some of that same one on one time with the newbie but right now we are just content with one Little to keep up with.

{yes, she dumped out Perry's water bowl and tried to drink the water off of the ground}


Michelle said...

I agree! Our little one is only five months and we've already been having people ask when we'll try for another. Like you, I want to enjoy all this time one-on-one with him! While my husband isn't ready for another yet either, he thinks our kids should be about two years apart, while I'm pushing for 3 to 3.5 years, mostly for the same reasons as you. But then again, of my three siblings, there is a total nine year age difference, while his family has five kids with only 5.5 years between oldest and youngest.

stephanie said...

I started reading your blog and following along your pregnancy journey at the same time I was pregnant.

I appreciated you voicing your struggles with becoming a new mom because I have shared many of your same feelings.

I was just discussing this same thing with my husband last night. How I want another child, but at the same time those first months were really difficult on me. I also feel guilty that I did not enjoy her at first as much as I do now.

It is nice to know I am not alone in wanting to put off going through the newborn phase again.

Tami said...

I love this post- especially because "family planning" has been on my mind these last few months. I've always said that we would have our kids 4 years apart but I have to be honest- I miss being pregnant and can't wait to have another baby. BUT at the same time, like you, I can't imagine having to divide my time between my darling girl and another baby. I want to give her plenty of time to be a baby before she becomes a big sister! I'm thinking we will probably go with your plan and have them about three years apart.

Natalie said...

This is so ironic because Tony & I were JUST talking about this last night on our date. I always thought I would be find just letting it happen whenever, but I don't want to share Callyn. My problem was not the newborn phase, but I was really sick my whole pregnancy and I just can't imagine doing that with a baby! I thought I would be so eager to grow our family but I am so content with our family of three right now and I think that's a GOOD thing! God will give us the desire when He wants us to grow our families :)

Allison said...

I've been following your blog for a while now but have never commented. I always enjoy your posts-they are honest and you keep it real. I really appreciate it because I am a new mom. My son is 3 weeks old and although I do LOVE this stage, I am looking forward to some more interaction and less screaming while nursing. I found your honesty about the newborn stage very refreshing and it's good to know that it's not all smiles and giggles all the time. It makes it more real life and makes me feel more "normal." Thanks!!

Abbey S said...

I'm not a mom, so I have nothing super significant to say, except that I love your honesty in this post and how real it feels. I also think it's beautiful that you want to wait so you can get to know each of your kiddos one on one. Thanks for sharing!

Bren said...

I went through the same thing with my son. The first 6 weeks were ROUGH! He cried all the time and I also had issues with nursing so we only made it to 3 months but after that first 6 weeks things got so much better and easier. Now he is such a happy go lucky baby and I can't imagine going back to that stage where he was so fussy. Georgia reminds me of my son with the cheeks, light hair and beautiful blue eyes. They almost look like they could be related lol


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